#64 – to whom it may concern

Posted in Uncategorized on October 15, 2011 by azweenz


if i hurt your feelings directly or indirectly, i would like to apologize. but it’d only be in here and my silent prayer, not verbally. what i did is the way i express my anger, cuz i’m so sick of the whole thing, annoyed, fed-up. i feel so dejected. like this is the first time you did this. i’m not making a fuss over some small thing, but even small things could turn up big cuz it affects my emotion for the whole day. actually, it doesn’t matter a lot anymore cuz i’m kinda prone to it, but for how long is this going on? how long?

…s-o-r-r-y — a-g-a-i-n…


#63 – once a coward

Posted in Uncategorized on October 5, 2011 by azweenz

whatever actions that we take most of all requires courage. and always, we’re afraid to just do it cuz we’re too afraid that it would be an unacceptable one by the other party. and that’s what had been trapping me all this time. to friends who have been giving me zee advice, endless support, geee thanks a lot! i mean it. if you guys are not there, i will never know the inside story. sebab aku tak berani. i’m not that frankly-speaking type of person. most is hidden deep inside. to another friend of mine, thanks for clearing all the doubts in my mind. you have no idea how relieved i am after saying that line. it’s not a matter of feelings anymore cuz like what i told you, it’s fading away. things that felt like a burden to me before this is gone! you have no idea about it.

i guess  i should try doing this more often, no? 🙂

#62 – back to town of everlasting peace

Posted in Uncategorized on September 23, 2011 by azweenz

i quote what Mak Cik Biah said to us just now in taxi: “kamu buat Taiping tu macam sini pi KLCC!”


ROFL. i don’t mind wasting my time rather than mati kutu staying there. seems like the one week gap between final exam papers is really killing us mentally. mama laughs when i told her that our biggest problem is food. truth is, we’re lazy to walk to that makan area. cook? i have no heart to do any cooking right now. glad i make the decision to go back, eventhough it was all so sudden, unplanned, way rushing!


besides, the house is too quiet without all of them. not nice!

#61 – well, yes

Posted in Uncategorized on September 22, 2011 by azweenz

no one can change what is revolving in my mind. no one can change the fact. no one can ever change the whole thing.

got it?


got it now?

it’d better be a nod.

#60 – zucchero

Posted in Uncategorized on September 13, 2011 by azweenz








now  back to reality.



#59 – untitled

Posted in Uncategorized on September 9, 2011 by azweenz

Jika anak hidup dengan kritikan, mereka belajar untuk mengutuk.
Jika anak hidup dengan permusuhan, mereka belajar untuk melawan.
Jika anak hidup dengan ketakutan, mereka belajar untuk bimbang.
Jika anak hidup dengan simpati, mereka belajar memaafkan.
Jika anak hidup dengan ejekan, mereka belajar untuk merasa malu.
Jika anak hidup dengan iri hati, mereka belajar untuk merasa dengki.
Jika anak hidup dengan galakan, mereka belajar keyakinan.
Jika anak hidup dengan toleransi, mereka belajar kesabaran.
Jika anak hidup dengan pujian, mereka belajar menghargai.
Jika anak hidup dengan menerima, mereka belajar untuk mengasihi.
Jika anak hidup dengan dorongan, mereka belajar menyayangi dirinya.
Jika anak hidup dengan pengiktirafan, mereka belajar mencapai matlamat.
Jika anak hidup dengan berkongsi, mereka belajar kemurahan hati.
Jika anak hidup dengan kejujuran, mereka belajar kebenaran.
Jika anak hidup dengan saksama, mereka belajar keadilan.
Jika anak  hidup dengan kasih sayang dan persahabatan, mereka belajar dunia adalah tempat yang indah untuk hidup.

Terjemahan “Children Learn What They Live” by Dorothy Law Nolte

#58 – tray with two faces

Posted in Uncategorized on September 7, 2011 by azweenz

does this happens ALL THE TIME? i’m around, you talk bad about her. i’m not around, so, vice versa; which makes the whole thing fair and square for both of us?


just wondering.